Beyond the Bema

Having surgery to remove part of your digestive tract isn’t for the faint of heart. I had been waiting a long time to have this procedure and the time came relatively fast.

I am so happy with how things are progressing. I have been on a liquid diet since five days before my operation. Needless to say, I’m hungry for solid foods.

I can’t help how this reminds me of Passover. Now I know it’s not Passover, but I do know that our ancestors were hungry during their voyage.

What is remarkable is that they never lost faith in following Moses and G!d’s word.

I am disappointed in myself. What you must know is that I am an open book. you will see spiritual ups and downs as I grow in my journey. This past week I have done great following my diet, but I feel my faith has been shaken a little bit. I wanted the diet to be over, I wanted G!d to head my prayers- and I wanted that to happen NOW, and so many other things to have a negative attitude. This negative attitude wasn’t getting me anywhere.

But when the Passover thought hit me, it hit hard.

I’m sure our ancestors were weary, but they leaned on their faith and pressed forward. 

I’ve prayed and found myself back on the right track. I pray that I allow myself to keep finding strength in HaShem through the hard times. My message to you is that G!d is always there and hears every prayer. Keep the faith.